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Jonesing After The Van

Well, we went and looked at vans and found one we liked. Supe likes the color a lot. It's a blue 1992 Dodge Grand Caravan SE. It has 62,000 miles on it and is going for $14,900.00 although they would give it to us for $13,200. But we would trade in my car, on which we still owe $7,000. So our financing would be for $16,600. We applied for the financing and will find out tomorrow or Monday if we got it. If we did, we will get it.

We are trying not to get our hopes up, but just being there, having Supe wheel up inside really gives us a glimpse of the mobility and freedom Supe would have with a vehicle like that.

It has a transfer seat in the driver's seat and the sliding door and ramp is mechanical so Supe can operate it all himself. It even has a CB radio which is so retro!

Anyway, we will let you know what comes of the financing. If we don't get it, we are not sure what in the heck we will do. It is discouraging to say the least.

On the high side, our sales guy, Jason is a young guy just out of college, but we found out he his a Christian. His dad was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer in May...never smoked a day in his life...and yet cancer was spreading through his bones and body. Well, he was prayed over by the elders of his church and even though he was originally given 3 months to live, tops, is still going strong. Not only that, but they can't find the cancer any more. We were so blessed to share our story with Jason and to have him share his dad's story with us. All of us have had our faith tested and we have come out closer to God and most willing to serve Him no matter the cost. It was very thrilling to talk about it together.

I forgot to mention that when I met with the psychologist this morning she gave me a packet of info on obsity as a disease. The reason it is so hard for people struggling with morbid obesity to lose weight is because they will eat far less calories than their bodies are used to so their body goes into depravation mode and conserves all available fat cells. It is a cycle that is hard to break and dificult to work through. It is as much pysiological as it is physical and emotional. That is why the WW thing won't work for me long term. It is good for me to use as a tool to get the 17 pounds off I need to lose before the surgery, but it will most likely not work for long term results. Also, it is a lot more slower and therefore harder to stay motivated. It's not the same having to lose 200lbs as it is losing 75 or less. In some ways it's the same, but in very different. So, even though I write about my WW weight loss, I am using WW as a tool to get me to the surgery which is the tool I will use for life long weight loss succecss.

Have a happy Valentine's Day tomorrow and in case I don't say it, Happy Birthday to my Valentine nephew Dylan tomorrow!

8:10 p.m. - Friday, Feb. 13, 2004


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